Nourishment for your spiritual awakening

Published by Lola

Anyone who’s had a Reiki attunement knows how uncomfortable it can feel at first.  It’s different for everyone, for me it gives feelings similar to anxiety.  I get constant butterflies in my stomach, my stomach becomes knotted and there is a slight dull ache.  This usually lasts no more than a day and then the good stuff kicks in, high energy, inner calm, feeling of being totally clean inside and out etc.  These feelings are due to the raising of my vibration but a Reiki attunement isn’t the only way to raise your vibration, so whenever I feel similar without an attunement I know my vibration is probably rising again. 

With that in mind, I think my vibration is raising, but the uncomfortable feelings are lasting for longer than a day this time.  I think, in fact I know, the source of this raised vibration is my 90 day challenge thrown down by Aaron at Today is That Day.  I have been feeling like crap for a few days now, not my usual positive self, fairly overwhelmed by the challenge I have set myself and having difficulty staying present.  I am focussing on what I don’t want, disliking my current situation and feeling fed up and anxious most of the time.  I am also reading Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now”, which is just making me feel daunted by how far I have to go, as well as confusing me somewhat on the conflicting nature of staying present and achieving my goals. 

I’m sitting here thinking, “Why do I feel like this? I should know better” and then I came across a post from Shama Hyder, which hit the nail on the head.  Shama says

“its A-OKAY to get lost in the muck sometimes. The universe won’t judge you or deduct any points for it. The FUN is in the process. The FUN is in finding yourself after you stumble and having many a A-HA moment.

So go ahead, forget how the universe always delivers exactly what you need and forget how to surrender. The universe will remind you. = )”

 Shama’s right, no matter what we know we are human so partial to temporarily forget.  Shama has shifted my current mindset so Tolle’s words no longer seem conflicting.  In fact, he is an advocate of observing your feelings and emotions without judgement to enable your disidentification with them (after all my emotions were causing me problems).  I had temporarily forgotten how to surrender, but I trust the universe to remind me (maybe Shama’s post was my reminder!). 

I have been pursuing my goals solely on a physical level, in terms of making every minute count and thinking about it constantly.  I can now see I have been missing out the spiritual aspects.  I was way too attached to the outcome, I was not staying present, I was not being grateful for what I do have, I was not focussing enough of what I wanted but what I didn’t.  So, I am going back to basics.  I will meditate 2 times a day, take regular exercise, re-adopt patience by staying present and take action.  If I find myself not doing some of it, it’s no big deal, I will not panic or judge myself but know that eventually I will be back on track. 

Let’s take the example of someone who has adopted a healthy eating and exercise plan, they feel fit, great and have loads of energy.  One week they have a blow out, they eat loads of sugar and junk so they suffer alot of headaches and bloating.  Towards the end ofthe week they look forward to getting back on their healthy eating plan as they feel like crap.  That’s how I feel, I’ve temporarily fallen off the wagon but look forward to jumping back on as I feel better there.

Love, light and abundance x x x

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Jun 27, 2007
Filed under: 90 day challenge, Growth, Personal development