Nourishment for your spiritual awakening

Published by Lola

Lately, I have been feeling very unusual and I can’t put my finger on exactly what it is.  My instincts tell me that nothing is wrong and in fact everything is very well, that I am going through a transformation, but I still feel weird. 

During the last few months I have definitely turned a corner, I feel at peace and happy with where I am yet focussed on the future.  I’ve been having prolonged periods of joy, positivity and a real sense that everything will be alright.  The penny has dropped on many concepts and I was having a myriad of “ah ha” moments or as I call them moments of realisation, synchronicity is with me big time and things are coming along nicely.

Then I recieved my Reiki Master attunment, started a 90 day challenge and continued my general development with spirituality being my main focus.  Somewhere in the last few weeks, things have become a struggle and it is a real conscious and constant battle to stop myself dwelling in low energy thoughts and feelings.  I have had days where I am totally wiped out and can’t do much, developed an allergy to bananas which swells my throat and tongue and gives me asthma-type symptoms, been snappy and aggressive, overwhelmed by what I need to do, have really loud mind chatter and even had trouble meditating.  In short, I have moved from tranquility to chaos! 

As I said earlier, instinctively I knew these were some sort of transformation symptoms which would pass, but I lacked proper knowledge until I found this.  Reading this was a like going to see a Psychic, you kind of already know what she tells you but needed verification.  There’s been a whole range of sensations and emotions I’ve been feeling lately and it’s good to know 100% why now. 

In true synchronicity fashion I also came across a great article by Bill Harris of Centerpointe called I Love Chaos (and so should you).  This article is long but well worth reading as it gives a clear and comprehensive account of why chaos is good for you. 

Bill says “Chaos is certainly a good description of what happens when you’re pushed over your threshold. But remember that being pushed over your threshold is part of a process by which your threshold is raised higher–which is a very good thing.” 

He uses Ilya Prigogine’s theory of dissipative structures to explain the change and to summarise “At first, things make sense. Then, things begin to be more chaotic, and they don’t make sense anymore. Finally, the system undergoes a quantum leap, a reorganization at a higher level, and then they make sense again, but in a whole new way that you never would have imagined before. Chaos, then, leads to positive change….”

What I have been experiencing is no more than a chaotic stage of a major process of change.  All this is good to know and seeing as I’m looking to continue growing and transforming, I’d better get used to it.   I obviously have a short memory as I have been here many times before on my journey, however I must be making progress as it definitely doesn’t feel as bad as it used to. 

How to cope with ascension symptoms 

Eating light foods regularly and exercise can help ease symptoms.  There is a tendency (for me anyway) to reach for cr*p food, especially chocolate on the energy slump days, but I always feel even worse after.  Eating a diet with lots of fruit, veg, fish, grains, pulses and water seems to help me a great deal. 

Previously, my way of dealing with the symptoms is to ride the wave and feel the emotions.  It’s not the most enjoyable ride but there is a great feeling of satisfaction coming out the other side, I have to be watchful of my self-punishment tendencies though. 

I make the effort to continue with life without over-exerting myself, however when I’m wiped out I take it easy - it doesn’t stop the feelings of guilt though!  I’ve always felt this was a better way of dealing with it than withdrawing completely from the world, as that’s what I really want to do! 

A new coping mechanism I have recently adopted is to watch my thoughts without judgement or criticism, the amazing thing is when you watch your thoughts, after a while there’s actually nothing there.  Instinctively, I feel this method is the way forward for me to deal with the transformation symptoms we all go through from time to time.  It feels right as it promotes acceptance of emotions felt and the chaotic process without any analysis of your feelings, which can lead one low energy feeling to another to another. 

I’d be very interested to hear how others deal with their chaotic times, so feel free to share and leave a comment.

 Love, light and abundance x x x

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Jul 12, 2007
Filed under: Growth, Reiki & Spiritual development