Nourishment for your spiritual awakening

Published by Lola

Don’t you just love synchronicity?  Hot on the heels of a recent post which showed me why I couldn’t stand being around weak people, I attended a coaching workshop last weekend that finished off my clearing on the matter.

I love these workshops and go there without expectations and full trust as magic always seems to happen.  The realisation of the impact of my inability to be with the concept of weakness, powerlessness and helplessness a few days before had already started off a process of releasing for me. 

So imagine my surprise when I get there and the workshop was all about being present, being and not doing as well as insights gained from traits or circumstances you simply cannot stand.   Well these were all my current themes! Also, I was having difficulty adjusting to the being not doing and in fact was trying so hard to be it was pathetic, as though I had simply missed the point.

Following my earlier realisation that I could not be with powerlessness, I had this high and dry feeling of “great… what next?” Thankfully the workshop finished off what I had started.  I was encouraged to really take the trait on board and experience powerlessness for myself as oposed to avoiding it at all costs.  In typical law of attraction fashion, I started to find myself in powerless situations, for instance I visited the loo and didn’t lock the door!  I felt exhausted, I had no energy, was low in mood and was falling into victim mode fast.  It really was a slippery slope and more and more low feelings and circumstances were appearing.  At one point I was sitting next to a fellow control freak who had to take on helplessness and we just moaned for about 15 minutes, almost competing for who felt the worst!

Following the experiencing of powerlessness, I was coached further into the feelings and my coach really took me to the place of powerlessness and once there multiplied it by twenty!  If you could die from visualisation, I would have.  I felt as though I was being strangled from the inside out, as if my airways were seriously restricted.  In this powerless state I felt extreme pressure as if the world was crushing so I gave up and just let the feelings take over.  What was available to me from there absolutely blew my mind.

I had this realisation of how hard it is to live from there and started to feel compassion for people that operate from this dark place.  Instead of judging them as weak I felt it was love they really needed.  This place was very dark and I felt how easy it was to keep sinking further and further down and fairly quickly too. 

The minute I felt the compassion, I could see a pink and gold flower made of light around my heart chakra.  This flower was gently radiating feelings of calm and peace and easing the pressure of being powerless until it had totally disappeared to be replaced by a gentle vibration and feeling of calm.  My airwaves had opened up as if I had been inhaling eucalyptus and I felt light and free.  Liberated from my fear of being powerless and not in control.  It truly was a divine moment where I felt connected to everyone and everything.

In that moment I knew my message, it was right in my face.  When you let yourself be powerless, you allow love to show up and take over.  I now know that it wasn’t powerlessness, it was in fact letting go and letting God.  I believed that I had to be actively doing things to make things happen, when in fact there can be more doing in just being.  Once I had let go, I was able to reach my divine Source and the rest was taken care of, all I had to do was to simply enjoy.

I had been actively working on compassion and my heart chakra for a while and was actually trying to hard and getting nowhere fast as well as frustrated and disappointed.  All of which makes me vibrate a level that doesn’t serve me at all.  The secret for me was allowing myself to see what was behind what I most feared and funnily enough it was what I wanted. 

This has been a huge shift for me and I truly feel like a different person.  My message today is one of getting clear which really ramps up your manifestations and raises your vibration no end.  The week following the course was filled with manifestations and a real coming together of things I have waited some time for.  Removing this fundamental block has allowed more abundance to flow to me, so I look forward to getting clear of more blockages soon.

Give some thought to what you cannot stand to be around, could be the most beneficial work you ever do.

 In love, light and abundance x x x

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Oct 29, 2007
Filed under: Reiki & Spiritual development, Personal development, Growth, Law of Attraction, Personal Power