Are you giving away your personal power?
The more I grow to respect and embrace my personal power, the more I see how much of it I give away. I’m a girl who likes to share, hence the blog. The only problem is that in my interpretation of being authentic, I sometimes share with the wrong people! A favourite way of mine to relinquish my personal power is when I am share my “aha” moments with the wrong people. I mistakenly assume that because I am lit up inside, everyone else will be too. When I see and hear their indifference I want to shake them, “Are they mad? Didn’t they hear what I said?”
I know when my power is handed over because I go on the attack, straight into judgement and feelings of superiority. Thoughts of “You really need to know this, why are you not interested? Have you looked at your life lately mate? Maybe if you started to put some of this information to good use you might not be in the mess you’re currently in. What are you scared of? Don’t you want to grow or change into something better - I think you should.” Ouch, it’s not a good look!
I can feel the drop in vibration and want to lash out as someone. The downward spiral has started, all because I feel hurt. All because I don’t feel listened to, judged as a nutter who hasn’t got a clue what I’m talking about. In short, the ego has landed!
My friend Jenn is into Native American spirituality and when we worked together we had many interesting chats. The environment we worked in was more concerned with things like what they had for dinner the night before and gossip. Me being me, I still brought up what interested me (God only knows why!), but Jen always used to tell me not to talk about our stuff with them as it takes something away when they aren’t interested. At the time I never really understood, I do now….
I’m currently in hibernation preparing for the New Year and part of this hibernation involves keeping my mouth shut for a change for the purposes of personal growth. There is a gift in not sharing with just anyone. I do not need to be so arrogant to expect that everyone will be interested in what I’m interested in and I must respect that. Whenever I have a realisation or see something inspirational I simply take it in and keep it to myself. If someone wants something from me, they’ll find me.
The best part is how much energy I am conserving and what I am achieving with this energy. It’s not just the environment that benefits from power conservation. I also think there may be some sort of saboteur wanting me to give away my power and stay small but I still have a choice over whether I listen to it or not - I choose not to.
I have still shared a little too much, but now I stop when I see the signs (of boredom)without attachment. You see it’s not the sharing that’s the problem, you never know when someone will get something useful from you, it’s the intention. If your intention is to rescue or show how intelligent you are then you are acting from ego. If your intention is to genuinely help then that has to happen in their time not yours. Living from your power can be the best help you give others.
Once upon a time it was my eyes glazing over when some “over enthusiatic personal development fanatic” was coming on too strong. Just as I wasn’t ready then, so may they. One day they will be and when that time comes I will be here ready to help out living fully from my power.
In love, light and abundance x x x
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Lawrence Cheok | A Long Long Road:
Haha Lola,
Looks like we may have something in common. I used to feel exactly the way that you describe.
I guess that people are just different and have different interests and inclinations.
As personal development advocates, we should really learn to respect this differences.
I’m glad you do.
Cheers!
Posted on December 13th, 2007 at 1:41 am
Al at 7P:
Excellent point about conserving your energy only for times when good value comes from sharing it.
Posted on December 16th, 2007 at 3:05 pm
Lola:
Lawrence - exactly that, people are different and we choose what we want to give away.
Al - You’re right, there’s not 1 rule for all situations. We must be aware of our intentions in sharing and do so without judgement.
In love, light and abundance x x x
Posted on December 16th, 2007 at 4:57 pm
Al at 7P:
Lola - agreed about your point regarding “sharing and do so without judgement.”
What I wrote might have been misconstrued. When I say conserve energy only for when good can come out of it, it can be good for yourself -OR- for the other person.
I’m agreeing with your point that it’s not fruitful to give good when you know that the other person will not get good from it, such as giving good advice to someone who told you they don’t want it.
Posted on December 18th, 2007 at 1:22 am